Why am I so tired?
Should this question ever find its way to you
Look back at what you have been through
If the world feels heavy, before the day even started
If everything outside feels as if its not necessary
You might be more than tired
Time creeps past you, while screaming for your attention
Being tired chisels away that little bit of motivation you had left
Fun is a term used to describe past events
Why am I so tired?
It might be your mind, tired of trying to succeed
Failure is all that rests in your hands, while your reach is still for the stars
But not living the life you want, tires you out
Dreaming a dream you cant chase, exhausts you
Not having a clear goal to get up for, breaks you down
Moving towards a job you hate, will shatter every bit of energy you could ever claim
Happiness could very possibly be the remedy to your fatigue
Purpose could very possibly be the cure to the dark
If you asked yourself more than once, it means you are close to the edge
Depression often sits on the heels of this question
Why am I so tired?
Never sleep inside those words
Why am I so tired?
Never let your mindstate be defined by those words
Its often not being tired, its just that you dont want to think
You dont want to relive the same moments over and over
You want to relax, unwind and find that little bit of joy you can claim
People would define it as doing nothing, but I am here to tell you
That its you going back to reclaim what little bit of energy you had left
Try to redefine your life, try to redefine your habits, restructure your patterns
And if all else fails … you might just need some sleep
Vino
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Recently I found myself losing certain aspects of business, which just made me feel pretty depressed. I didnt feel like doing the things I was doing, and I didnt feel like it was worth it. I started to think that maybe I should just give in. But I forced myself to keep going, and that is when it happened. I became tired all the time … without any real indication I started to tell myself “Im tired”. Just getting out of bed to do what I do, became hard. Because the joy of it was taken out of it, I was now solely driven by responsibility, which forced me to ask myself Why am I so tired? And the answer was, because I gave up on something that I shouldnt have. And I wanted to translate that into words, so this one might just be more for me than for anyone else.
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