It won’t stop raining in my mind
Time isn’t always a friend to me. People love saying that time heals wounds, but I know for a fact that it’s not true. Depression is a wound that only gets bigger with time. And yes I just called depression a wound because that is what it is to me. It’s this injury to your mind that got brought on by life or a chemical imbalance.
But this state of being is a constant. And for most of us, it is a defining point in our day to day life. As for me, I try to work around my depression though. I try to be ok in the rain and enjoy the sunshine that makes it way through the raindrops.
It won’t stop raining in my mind because depression refuses to leave me.
Sometimes it’s really hard to appreciate the sunshine though. Due to the constant rainfall, I tend to start thinking perhaps it’s better to stay in. Stay in where it’s warm, where I won’t get wet and I don’t have to explain to people why I brought rain to their pure sunshine. And that’s not all, because it won’t stop raining in my mind it somehow influences my energy. Too tired to wade my way through these tears. I would rather just stay in and keep this tired body in where it won’t have to be made excuses for as to why it’s always sleepy and tired.
It won’t stop raining in my mind and that’s what depression feels like. I’ve been dealing with it for so long that I just accepted the rain. And I just give it time for the rain to subside to a slight drizzle.
What does your depression feel like?
Here is my spoken word poem about depression and how I deal with it.
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